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Niedziela, 24 Czerwca, 2007, 18:16

"ALE TO JU¯ BY£O I NIE WRÓCI WIÊCEJ..."

Tê notkê dedykujê ca³ej klasie III b... by³ej klasie III b. Kocham Was:*
A to, ¿e nikt z klasy tego nie przeczyta (bo prawie nikt nie wie, ¿e co¶ takiego piszê) siê wytnie

PS. Piszcie, który styl pisania bardziej siê Wam podoba.
¯ycie duchowe Albusa (i tym samym po czê¶ci moje) czy wydarzenia bie¿±ce? Bo chyba na tym polega pisanie, aby uto¿samiæ siê z bohaterem, przelewaæ w ten sposób swoje my¶li, ale mo¿e siê mylê...

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3 pa¼dziernik, czwartek, 1991 rok

Me cia³o i duszê opanowuje wszechogarniaj±ca pustka. Pustka po ludziach których kiedykolwiek spotka³em, z którymi musia³em siê po¿egnaæ... na zawsze, z którymi dorasta³em, z którymi prze¿ywa³em najwa¿niejsze chwile w swym ¿yciu. Pozostaj± mi po nich wspomnienia, pamiêæ wspólnie prze¿ytych chwil. Chcia³bym aby czas stan±³ w miejscu. Abym nie musia³ ¿egnaæ kolejnych bliskich memu sercu ludzi, aby moje serce mia³o czas siê zagoiæ, bo tak bardzo boli. Przez historiê mojego ¿ycia przewinê³o siê tak wielu ludzi, jedni zapomniani, drudzy pozostawiaj±cy po sobie wieczny ¶lad odci¶niêty na wra¿liwym sercu. Chcia³bym, ju¿ chyba nie po raz pierwszy i zapewne nie po raz ostatni, powróciæ do tamtych chwil, tamtych ludzi, powtórnie prze¿yæ z nimi kilka chwil. Tak mnie korci... aby u¿yæ zmieniacza czasu i cofn±æ siê kilkadziesi±t lat wstecz. Jednak wiem, ¿e to najgorsze z mo¿liwych pomys³ów. Dlaczego? Bo znów nadejdzie czas po¿egnañ. Powtórnie znosiæ ból rozstania. Nie, nie mam na to si³y.

Lubiê przechadzaæ siê noc± po zamku. Cisza, spokój i puste pomieszczenia... Ten zamek odzwierciedla moj± duszê. S± chwile pustki aby nastêpnie mog³o przyj¶æ zadowolenie z ¿ycia. W dzieñ ka¿dy zakamarek zamku têtni ¿yciem... i we mnie maj± miejsce takie chwile. Czujê, ¿e ¿yjê, mam ochotê braæ ¿ycie takim jaki jest i cieszyæ siê z tego. Lecz dzi¶ nie potrafiê, nie mam ochoty ani si³y wymuszaæ u¶miech na mojej twarzy. Nie dzi¶ i nie jutro. To nie przejdzie tak szybko, niczym uparta choroba bêdzie siê ci±gn±æ dniami i nocami pozostawiaj±c po sobie wieczny ¶lad. Podkowa na buzi... to taki kszta³t bêd± musieli ogl±daæ Ci, których spotkam. Bêd± siê pytaæ co siê sta³o. A nie by³o by lepiej gdyby po prostu dotrzymali towarzystwa? By byli i wiêcej nie zostawiali samego na pastwê w³asnych my¶li? Jestem stary i co z tego? Te¿ potrzebujê blisko¶ci drugiego cz³owieka. Taka ju¿ wada cz³owieczeñstwa... przez samotno¶æ gnijemy, potrzebujemy kontaktu z innymi. Psychicznego, ale tak¿e fizycznego. Przytuliæ siê do kogo¶. Poczuæ bicie jego serca... tak tego potrzebujê, tylko kto mi to zapewni?

Sk±d ta nag³a potrzeba blisko¶ci? Bo znów straci³em bliska osobê. Znów znosiæ ból po stracie i powrót do przesz³o¶ci do natrêtnych wspomnieñ. Drogi Sewerynie dlaczego? Dlaczego dzi¶? Dlaczego tak szybko? Milion pytañ i ani jednej odpowiedzi, bo któ¿ j± zna? I kolejne pytanie do kolekcji, tyle ¿e tym razem odpowied¼ jest. Bóg, to on wie dlaczego mi ciebie odebra³. Najwierniejszego przyjaciela jakiego kiedykolwiek mia³em przyjemno¶æ poznaæ. Tysi±ce nekrologów na p³otach... wkrótce i Twój zawi¶nie. Ka¿dy bêdzie móg³ zobaczyæ o jakiego cz³owieka ¶wiat sta³ siê biedniejszy, jednak nie poczuj± z tego powodu ¿adnego uk³ucia ¿alu. Przejd± obojêtnie dalej, oddaj±c siê ponownie zgie³kowi ¿ycia. Jednak w tych kilku wybranych spo¶ród t³umu, zakorzenisz wieczn± têsknotê. Ja tak¿e jestem w tym t³umie...


"Smutek jest drzewem, a jego owocami ³zy."*




*cytat ¶ci±gniêty z www.mysli.com.pl , jego autorem jest Ioannis Filimon.

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