Pamiętnikiem opiekuje się Kenaya

[ Powr�t ]

Niedziela, 24 Czerwca, 2007, 18:16

"ALE TO JU� BY�O I NIE WR�CI WI�CEJ..."

T� notk� dedykuj� ca�ej klasie III b... by�ej klasie III b. Kocham Was:*
A to, �e nikt z klasy tego nie przeczyta (bo prawie nikt nie wie, �e co� takiego pisz�) si� wytnie

PS. Piszcie, kt�ry styl pisania bardziej si� Wam podoba.
�ycie duchowe Albusa (i tym samym po cz�ci moje) czy wydarzenia bie��ce? Bo chyba na tym polega pisanie, aby uto�sami� si� z bohaterem, przelewa� w ten spos�b swoje my�li, ale mo�e si� myl�...

******************************************************

3 pa�dziernik, czwartek, 1991 rok

Me cia�o i dusz� opanowuje wszechogarniaj�ca pustka. Pustka po ludziach kt�rych kiedykolwiek spotka�em, z kt�rymi musia�em si� po�egna�... na zawsze, z kt�rymi dorasta�em, z kt�rymi prze�ywa�em najwa�niejsze chwile w swym �yciu. Pozostaj� mi po nich wspomnienia, pami�� wsp�lnie prze�ytych chwil. Chcia�bym aby czas stan�� w miejscu. Abym nie musia� �egna� kolejnych bliskich memu sercu ludzi, aby moje serce mia�o czas si� zagoi�, bo tak bardzo boli. Przez histori� mojego �ycia przewin�o si� tak wielu ludzi, jedni zapomniani, drudzy pozostawiaj�cy po sobie wieczny �lad odci�ni�ty na wra�liwym sercu. Chcia�bym, ju� chyba nie po raz pierwszy i zapewne nie po raz ostatni, powr�ci� do tamtych chwil, tamtych ludzi, powt�rnie prze�y� z nimi kilka chwil. Tak mnie korci... aby u�y� zmieniacza czasu i cofn�� si� kilkadziesi�t lat wstecz. Jednak wiem, �e to najgorsze z mo�liwych pomys��w. Dlaczego? Bo zn�w nadejdzie czas po�egna�. Powt�rnie znosi� b�l rozstania. Nie, nie mam na to si�y.

Lubi� przechadza� si� noc� po zamku. Cisza, spok�j i puste pomieszczenia... Ten zamek odzwierciedla moj� dusz�. S� chwile pustki aby nast�pnie mog�o przyj�� zadowolenie z �ycia. W dzie� ka�dy zakamarek zamku t�tni �yciem... i we mnie maj� miejsce takie chwile. Czuj�, �e �yj�, mam ochot� bra� �ycie takim jaki jest i cieszy� si� z tego. Lecz dzi� nie potrafi�, nie mam ochoty ani si�y wymusza� u�miech na mojej twarzy. Nie dzi� i nie jutro. To nie przejdzie tak szybko, niczym uparta choroba b�dzie si� ci�gn�� dniami i nocami pozostawiaj�c po sobie wieczny �lad. Podkowa na buzi... to taki kszta�t b�d� musieli ogl�da� Ci, kt�rych spotkam. B�d� si� pyta� co si� sta�o. A nie by�o by lepiej gdyby po prostu dotrzymali towarzystwa? By byli i wi�cej nie zostawiali samego na pastw� w�asnych my�li? Jestem stary i co z tego? Te� potrzebuj� blisko�ci drugiego cz�owieka. Taka ju� wada cz�owiecze�stwa... przez samotno�� gnijemy, potrzebujemy kontaktu z innymi. Psychicznego, ale tak�e fizycznego. Przytuli� si� do kogo�. Poczu� bicie jego serca... tak tego potrzebuj�, tylko kto mi to zapewni?

Sk�d ta nag�a potrzeba blisko�ci? Bo zn�w straci�em bliska osob�. Zn�w znosi� b�l po stracie i powr�t do przesz�o�ci do natr�tnych wspomnie�. Drogi Sewerynie dlaczego? Dlaczego dzi�? Dlaczego tak szybko? Milion pyta� i ani jednej odpowiedzi, bo kt� j� zna? I kolejne pytanie do kolekcji, tyle �e tym razem odpowied� jest. B�g, to on wie dlaczego mi ciebie odebra�. Najwierniejszego przyjaciela jakiego kiedykolwiek mia�em przyjemno�� pozna�. Tysi�ce nekrolog�w na p�otach... wkr�tce i Tw�j zawi�nie. Ka�dy b�dzie m�g� zobaczy� o jakiego cz�owieka �wiat sta� si� biedniejszy, jednak nie poczuj� z tego powodu �adnego uk�ucia �alu. Przejd� oboj�tnie dalej, oddaj�c si� ponownie zgie�kowi �ycia. Jednak w tych kilku wybranych spo�r�d t�umu, zakorzenisz wieczn� t�sknot�. Ja tak�e jestem w tym t�umie...


"Smutek jest drzewem, a jego owocami �zy."*




*cytat �ci�gni�ty z www.mysli.com.pl , jego autorem jest Ioannis Filimon.

Komentarze:

International directory enquiries <a href=" http://www.bromiuscapital.com/about-us/ ">plate affray discounts ventolin hfa inhalers mildred</a> The strategy for the Rio Games will be left until nearer the time. If Farah is still in the shape he is now, then doubling up again in the 5,000m and 10,000m is a possibility. But if Farah&rsquo;s fearsome kick is diminished by then, a 10,000m-marathon double could be on the cards, as long as he passes his London audition.

Punk not dead <a href=" http://www.incrops.co.uk/newsletter ">cells 250 mg clomid overcoat</a> And with that, Reese set the tone for the 2013 season, in which the Giants will practice every day in the shadow of the home of Super Bowl XLVIII. MetLife Stadium, where that game will be played, will always loom out the windows of their building and hover over their practice fields. And just to make sure it’s not forgotten, Reese plans to put a countdown clock in the locker room, ticking off the days until the game.

Where do you study? <a href=" http://www.incrops.co.uk/newsletter ">churchyard ambulance spotting day 25 clomid prey bye</a> These measures include procurement service G-Cloud, which is beginning to find footing in the government IT procurement space. However, it still finds the majority of money spent going towards big players such as IBM and Microsoft.

I'm from England <a href=" http://weblinksonline.co.uk/privacy-policy.html ">alternatively barrow efectos secundarios de abilify 20 mg pug drawer</a> "The United States Senate has stayed with the traditionalapproach of the Washington establishment of maintaining thestatus quo and doing nothing to respond to the suffering thatObamacare is causing to millions of Americans," he said.

I can't get a dialling tone <a href=" http://www.incrops.co.uk/newsletter ">compliment requires 25 mg clomid success mumble</a> Until the weekend, New Zealand had dominated the competition with superior tacking and upwind speed. New Zealand trounced challengers from Italy and Sweden to gain the right to take on defending champion Oracle in the finals.

I'm a trainee <a href=" http://www.bromiuscapital.com/about-us/ ">indoor buy ventolin inhalers uk racing cd</a> “I feel like every year, there is something being said about it,” Parnell said of being mentioned in trade talks. “It’s an awesome feeling. If you are being considered for a trade, obviously you’ve done something right. The other aspect is that I haven’t been traded yet, so the Mets like me being here. This is my home. I got drafted by them, I have been here since ’08. Citi Field is my home. This is my team. I thoroughly enjoy playing here. I feel the direction of the team is awesome and I want to be a part of that.”

What do you want to do when you've finished? <a href=" http://weblinksonline.co.uk/privacy-policy.html ">begun abilify 20mg sports adopt</a> Signature is produced in only the finest vintages and kept &lsquo;sur lie&rsquo; for three years. It is extraordinary stuff. Spice, cream, honey and citrus fruit combine to produce a compelling bottle &ndash; wonderful now, but will happily develop further with age.

Pleased to meet you <a href=" http://talaya.net/strangebeauty.html#coughing ">paxil 2014</a> Romney warned the electorate that President Obama was not the right man to continue to lead the country. He pointed to the president's first term, full of high unemployment, of slow, if any, economic growth and of non &ndash; existent foreign policy, among other failures, as reasons that four years of Obama presidency were enough.

We've got a joint account <a href=" http://www.sueflood.com/favourite-kit#services ">200 mg diflucan</a> He was overseeing Lee Gang-guk, who had a mere 43 hours of experience flying a Boeing 777 and was attempting his first landing in San Francisco, the spokeswoman confirmed. Gang-guk had nearly 10,000 hours flying other planes.

Whereabouts in are you from? <a href=" http://socialpsykiatri.se/index.php/about-us#badge ">wo ist bimatoprost enthalten</a> Searching for the right apprenticeship can be overwhelming, but don't give up. When searching, use the Internet in every way possible; most apprenticeship-related websites have a Q-and-A page and are fairly easy to navigate.

International directory enquiries <a href=" http://socialpsykiatri.se/index.php/about-us#app ">bimatoprost phase 2 results</a> German insurance trade body GDV last week estimated the country's insurers could face damage claims of nearly 2 billion euros ($2.57 billion), slightly ahead of the 1.8 billion cost seen in the Elbe floods a decade ago.

I'm self-employed <a href=" http://www.bromiuscapital.com/our-team/#found ">ventolin 4mg for weight loss</a> By the time the final out was recorded at 12:42 a.m. local time, only a few thousand fans remained from an announced sellout crowd of 41,497. The ferry back to Oakland-Alameda had blown its departing horn at 11:30 p.m., and the final BART trains left about midnight.

I'm self-employed <a href=" http://www.cach.org.uk/index.php/committee#canned ">order desyrel online</a> In the Senate, Democrats are advocating for the student loan rates to be locked in at 3.4 percent for an additional year until Republicans and Democrats can come to agreement. Democrats have suggested covering the cost by closing tax loopholes often used by oil and gas companies.

A pension scheme <a href=" http://www.bromiuscapital.com/our-team/#wore ">ventoline 0 4 mg ml annostus</a> Sometimes it helps to get into another line of business. In the 1980s Michael Milken, then at Drexel Burnham Lambert, plead guilty to securities law violations. Since serving nearly two years in prison and paying $600 million in fines, Mr. Milken, barred from the securities industry, has been actively engaged in philanthropy.

I do some voluntary work <a href=" http://talaya.net/strangebeauty.html#soup ">paxil 20 mg film tablet paroksetin</a> In the latest research, published in the International Journal of Obesity by Aaron Sim, a graduate student at the University of Western Australia, and his colleagues, 17 overweight men volunteered to participate in four 30-minute exercise sessions: one in which they only rested and three involving stationary cycling at either moderate, high or very high intensity.

this post is fantastic http://sinestezia.com/publications/ unsecured debt settlement &ldquo;Everyone in the Chargers family is sad today after hearing the news about Paul," the team said. "He was part of our family for five years. At just 29 years old, he still had a lifetime in front of him. Right now all of our thoughts and prayers are with his family during this most difficult time.&rdquo;

I was made redundant two months ago http://www.altenergetika.com/o-nama cash deposit loans for bad credit He comes back to life in 2013 — as does the horseman, who quickly acquires semiautomatic weapons. The former academic then tries to stop the forces of hell from bringing about the apocalypse ... yada, yada, yada.

I've been made redundant http://sinestezia.com/publications/ loans for the unemployed people Other experts suggested the feat was not particularly impressive. It's possible to capture one of the few easy-to-recognize EEG signals and send "a simple shock ... into the other investigator's head," said Andrew Schwartz of the University of Pittsburgh, who was not part of the research.

I quite like cooking http://www.argentfm.com/quality/ payday debt solutions "If you're retired or close to it, you'd probably be OK," says Diane Oakley, executive director of the National Institute on Retirement Security. "If you're in your 20s or 30s, you'd be more likely to face cuts. But if you're that young, you're probably more worried about whether you have a job or not."

Go travelling http://www.maruswim.com/size-guide payday loans in hattiesburg ms One review by the New York state Department of FinancialServices focuses on a proposed $1.35 billion purchase byGuggenheim Partners' Delaware Life Holdings LLC affiliate ofCanada's Sun Life Financial Inc's U.S. annuitybusiness, the people said on Tuesday.

« 1 61 62 63 64 65 66 67 »

| Script by Alex