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Smutne Bo�e Narodzenie

Nareszcie Bo�e Narodzenie...Nie pali�o mi si� wraca� do domu, bo bola�o mnie na my�l o tym, co mnie tam czeka. Jeszcze przed wyjazdem postanowi�em wys�a� smoka do Hermiony z adresem mojego domu. Do domu wracali�my 20 grudnia. Niewiele os�b zostawa�o-wszyscy mieli ju� do�� szko�y.
Profesor Hogwal zorganizowa�a nam pojazdy-ogromne smoki, aczkolwiek �agodne.
Nie mia�em ochoty rozmawia�, nie chcia�o mi si� ju� nic-ani wraca� , ani zosta� w szkole. Dowiedzia�em si� od matki, �e ojciec jest w ci�kiej chorobie. Tylko dlatego chcia�em wraca� do domu, kt�ry teraz zapewne. tonie w smutku. Tylko ze wzgl�du na rodzic�w, by mam� pocieszy�, a tat� zobaczy� chocia� ostatni raz... Nie pomaga�y mi pocieszenia koleg�w -wr�cz przeciwnie, jeszcze bardziej si� zas�pia�em. Czu�em straszn� pustk�, ponuro�� i nie mog�em przesta� my�le� o chorobie taty...
W podr�y siedzia�em z twarz� skierowan� w stron� okna-na nic nie pomaga�y mi zach�ty koleg�w do rozmowy. Przygl�da�em si� �niegowi, delikatnie le��cemu na koronach drzew, zamarzni�temu i jakby tajemniczemu jeziorze i domom, w kt�rych weso�o i ciep�o pali�o si� �wiat�o...Od ca�ego �wiata bi�a nadzieja, nadzieja, bez kt�rej nie da si� �y�...Patrz�c na te �liczne krajobrazy, zastanawia�em si�, czy m�j ojciec kiedykolwiek jeszcze zobaczy to, co ja widzia�em w czasie podr�y...
W ko�cu zobaczyli�my stacj� lotniczo- smokow�, na kt�rej l�dowa�y wszystkie smoki z ca�ej Bu�garii. Oboj�tnie odebra�em baga�, wysiad�em i sm�tnie ruszy�em w kierunku domu. Koledzy wiedzieli o ojcu, zreszt� profesorowie te�, tak wi�c nikt mnie nie zatrzymywa�. Do domu daleko nie mia�em-zaledwie kilometr od stacji. Ju� widzia�em dom, w kt�rym jednak nie pali�y si� kolorowe lampki i ciep�e �wiat�o...Dom by� strasznie ponury...Stan��em przed drzwiami, g�o�no prze�kn��em �lin� i delikatnie pchn��em drzwi...Te cicho skrzypn�y, ale otworzy�y si� i wszed�em do �rodka.
Rzuci�em walizk� w k�t i staraj�c si� cicho chodzi�, ruszy�em w kierunku schod�w, kt�re prowadzi�y do pokoju ojca...
-Wiktor!- krzykn�a mama, rzucaj�c mi si� na szyj�.
Cho� teraz u�miecha�a si� przez �zy, wida� po niej by�o, �e u�miech nie go�ci� na jej twarzy przez wiele, zapewne, bezsennych nocy..
Spojrza�em na ojca i poczu�em si� s�abo, bo ojciec naprawd� nie wygl�da� dobrze. Twarz mia� bia��, prawie prze�roczyst�, cho� policzki pokrywa�y niezdrowe rumie�ce. Le�a� bez ruchu, wpatruj�c si� we mnie i wyra�nie pr�bowa� co� powiedzie� czy u�miechn��. Niestety, zar�wno pierwsze, jak i drugie przysz�o mu z trudem.
-Witaj, m�j drogi ch�opcze-wychrypia� z trudem i pr�bowa� si� podnie��, ale mama go przytrzyma�a, p�acz�c.
-Mo�e mam p�j�� wam co� przynie��?- spyta�em cicho i niepewnie.
Mama wyra�nie nie chcia�a, bym patrzy� na m�k� ojca.
-Tak, synku, czy m�g�by� przynie�� troch� zimnej wody...?
Kiwn��em g�ow� i zszed�em na d� do kuchni. Cho� droga mog�a trwa� g�ra kilkana�cie sekund, to jednak mi wydawa�o si�, �e up�yn�o pe�no godzin, przepe�nionych smutkiem i rozpacz�...
W kuchni niezdarnie chwyci�em szklank�, dr�a�y mi r�ce, wi�c spad�a na ziemi� z g�o�nym trzaskiem.
W�ciek�y na siebie, wzi��em drug� szklank� i tym razem uda�o mi si�, zaledwie troch� wylewaj�c, nala� do niej zimnej wody. Nagle kto� zapuka� do drzwi...
Otworzy�em je i ujrza�em nasz� s�siadk�, dobrotliw� staruszk� o pogodnej twarzy. Teraz jednak�e nie wskazywa�a rado�ci, wr�cz odwrotnie-przygn�bienie malowa�o si� na jej twarzy.
-Dzie� dobry, Wiktorze, o, ju� w domu jeste�...Ja chcia�am wymieni� kilka zda� z twoj� mam�, czy jest to mo�liwe?
Mama wszystko s�ysza�a i zesz�a powoli na d�. Zauwa�y�em, �e jej tak�e trz�s�y si� nogi.
-Mamo-zapyta�em prawie szeptem-mo�e p�jd� teraz do taty?
Niech�tnie si� zgodzi�a. Gdy tylko znalaz�em si� na g�rze, ukl�k�em ko�o taty.
Spojrza� na mnie z mi�o�ci�, aczkolwiek jego oczy wskazywa�y, �e bardzo cierpi.
-Wiktorze-wychrypia� powoli- ja...Te� chodzi�em...Kiedy� do...Dumstrangu. W nim jest skrytka...Karkarow...Moje rzeczy....W skrytce...w gabinecie dyrektora...Skonfiskowa� je....Nale�� si� teraz tobie...We� je...Zostawi�em je... Zachowaj po ojcu...-ledwo powiedzia�...
Kiwn��em g�ow�. Ojciec przymyka� oczy...
-Nie...Ojcze...Nie!- krzykn��em.
-Kocham ci�, Wiktorze- powiedzia�, ju� prawie szeptem...
-Ja ciebie te�, tato-odrzek�em cicho...
I w tym momencie sta�o si� co�, czego nie zapomn� do ko�ca �ycia.
Wiem tylko, �e krzykn��em z b�lem i rozpacz� w g�osie, gdy zobaczy�em to...
Ojciec przymkn�� oczy...
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Przepraszam, Marto, �e �ci�gn�am temat...
mam nadziej�, �e notka si� wszystkim spodoba
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Komentarze:

Nie musisz przeprasza� za �ci�gni�cie tematu... wena ci go przynios�a ;) Notka bardzo smutna... ju� jest wi�cej uczu� i fajnie, ale ca�y czas pracuj nad j�zykiem niekt�rych os�b... przeczytaj ca�o�� nim wkleisz i zapytaj sama siebie, czy jeste� zadowolona, sp�jrz na to z boku. Podoba�o mi si� i mam nadziej�, �e nied�ugo nowy wpis.

notka smutna ale za to �licznie opisanem badzo poetycko.. hmm.. wtrabiasz si� kochanaZapaszam do mnie, bo jest nowa notka a teraz �igam czyta� dalej :*

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