Pamiętnikiem opiekuje się Arwena_Eowina_Black.

[ Powrót ]

Sobota, 15 Października, 1977, 20:42

Dodatkowe... k³opoty i wspomnienia

Notkê dedykujê dziewczyn± z ZKP i @nce. Ju¿ od dawna mnie mobilizuj± swoimi d³ugimi i rozbudowanymi komentarzami, które naprawdê powoduj±, ¿e a¿ chce siê pisaæ . Jednak notka, przede wszystkim dla M., za uruchomienie Wena, chyba naprawdê uda³o Ci siê go rozruszaæ na sta³e . Za to, ¿e jest, ¿e pomaga i (ju¿ tradycyjnie) potrafi rozbudziæ moje ambicje. Notka stosunkowo d³uga, lecz je¶li chodzi o tre¶æ, to wiem, ¿e mog³o byæ lepiej.
I zapraszam do pamiêtnika Bellatrix Black, który mam przyjemno¶æ prowadziæ.
Pozdrawiam
Arwena

Jestem po prostu ¿a³osna. Albo zbyt dobra... na jedno wychodzi. Och, bo ja siê zawsze muszê w co¶ wpakowaæ, jak nie w dodatkow± pracê z transmutacji, nad któr± potem ¶lêczê ca³± noc, to w dodatkowe zajêcia... A wszystko przez Eleanor Walsh.
Sz³am sobie korytarzem, prowadz±cym na wie¿ê astronomiczn±, aby tam do¶wiadczyæ trochê spokoju, gdy nagle zauwa¿y³am jak w moja stronê pêdzi nauczycielka od wró¿biarstwa. Niby nic dziwnego, bo ju¿ siê przyzwyczai³am, ¿e ta dziwne kobieta biega po Hogwarcie i patrzy siê na wszystkich wzrokiem, z którego mo¿na wyczytaæ „Och, Wy moi nie¶wiadomi swojego losu biedacy”. Tym razem by³o inaczej, kobieta ewidentnie zmierza³a w moj± stronê, a na dok³adkê, mia³a ³zy w oczach.
- Och, panno Evans – wyjêcza³a, chwytaj±c mnie za ramiê. - Co ja takiego zrobi³am? Co ja zrobi³am, ¿e mnie tak nie lubicieeeee....- zawy³a, nie zwa¿aj±c na moj± zaskoczon± minê.
- Ale...pani Walsh, przecie¿ eee... my pani± naprawdê bardzo lubimy – powiedzia³am, chocia¿ nie by³am pewna w czyim imieniu przemawiam.
- To czemu ju¿ po raz trzeci, nie ma nikogo chêtnego z klas siódmych na moje zajêcia...?- zapyta³a zapominaj±c o szlochu i zamieniaj±c ton na oskar¿ycielski.
- Eee... Poniewa¿, musimy... ju¿ my¶leæ o... przysz³o¶ci. O! Tak, o przysz³o¶ci i wybieraæ przedmioty, z którymi wi±¿emy nasz± przysz³o¶æ. - odetchnê³am z ulg± my¶l±c, ¿e wybrnê³am z problemy. Niestety siê myli³am.
- O przysz³o¶ci, mówisz? A czy jest jaki¶ przedmiot, który bardziej skupia siê na przysz³o¶ci od wró¿biarstwa?
Zbarania³am kompletnie. Niestety ona to zauwa¿y³a.
- Ty k³amiesz... - znowu zaczê³a szlochaæ. - nie chcesz, ¿eby by³o mi przykro. A Wy mnie po prostu nie lubicieee...- rzuci³a mi szybkie, krótkie spojrzenie i znowu zaczê³a jêczeæ.
- To nie tak proszê pani, ja... ja... - jeszcze chwilê ze sob± walczy³am, ale nie wytrzyma³am.- porozmawiam z kolegami i na pewno znajdzie siê masa chêtnych na pani zajêcia, oni... mo¿e nie wiedzieli, ¿e pani chce je prowadziæ. - powiedzia³am z rezygnacja obserwuj±c, jak na jej czterdziestoletniej twarzy pojawia siê u¶miech.
- Och, dziêkujê panno Evans, gwiazdy mi mówi³y, ¿e...
- Tak, tak pani Walsh... ja siê spieszê, na...eee chympchym – wykas³a³am co¶ niewyra¼nie i uciek³am jak najdalej od tej nawiedzonej kobiety. Niestety s³owo siê rzek³o i jeszcze tego samego wieczoru opowiedzia³am wszystko w pokoju wspólnym.
- Na mnie Lily, nie licz.- pierwszy odmówi³ Quentin.
- Na mnie te¿, nie mam zamiaru spêdzaæ dodatkowych godzin z t± nawiedzon± kobiet±. - nawet Janet odmówi³a.
- Evans, po co Ty w ogóle siê w to wpl±ta³a¶?
-... Och, by³o mi jej ¿al. To by³a taka chwilowa niepoczytalno¶æ, ale ju¿ obieca³am, ¿e jej zmontujê ekipie na zajêcia. B³agam, Black dwie godziny w tygodniu – to siê da znie¶æ. Zrób to dla mnie!
Nagle nad moim ramieniem pojawi³ siê James.
- Co £apa, ma dla Ciebie zrobiæ? - spyta³ siê podejrzliwie.
- Nic.- odpowiedzia³am automatycznie.
- Evans, obieca³a kobiecie od wró¿biarstwa, ¿e znajdzie chêtnych z 7 klasy na jej zajêcia, poniewa¿ nikt nie jest chêtny, bêdzie musia³a i¶æ do niej sama.
- Pójdê z Tob± Lilka!- od razu mê¿nie zareagowa³ James.
- Nic z tego, wystarczy mi, ¿e bêdê musia³a siê u¿eraæ z jedn± psychopatk±. - odpowiedzia³am dumnie. Zrobi³am to tak dla zasady, bo nie by³am pewna, czy nie chce Jamesa na zajêciach.
- Lilu¶ nie narzekaj, razem bêdzie ra¼niej. I doceni³a by¶ w koñcu jak siê dla Ciebie po¶wiêcam. - powiedzia³ z b³yskiem w oku i nie czekaj±c na odpowied¼ odszed³.

Mimo moich usilnych starañ i rozmów jakie przeprowadzi³am z moimi znajomymi, nikt nie zgodzi³ siê na udzia³ w zajêciach. Dosz³o nawet do tego, ¿e mia³am nadziejê, ¿e kobieta zapomnia³a o moich s³owach, ale wtedy odzywa³ siê we mnie g³os, który mówi³ „Evansowie, zawsze dotrzymuj± s³owa”. Ju¿ dwa dni po tym incydencie, Walsh poinformowa³a mnie, kiedy bêd± siê odbywaæ nasze zajêcia, o dziwo by³a wesolutka jak skowronek. Nie zrazi³a j± nawet informacja o liczbie chêtnych na jej zajêcia, t³umacz±c to tym, ¿e pan O`Brian , nauczyciel od mugoloznastwa, ma tylko czerech uczniów i ¿e „nie liczy siê ilo¶æ, tylko jako¶æ”. Teraz, ka¿de czwartkowe popo³udnie mam spêdzaæ z t± kobiet± i Jamesem w jednym pomieszczeniu. I jak tu siê nie zabiæ?


Prze¿y³am pierwsze zajêcia, ale by³o ciê¿ko. Z Jamesem spotka³am siê przed drzwiami do jej sali. Jedyne co mnie pocieszy³o, to, to ¿e w jego spojrzeniu dostrzeg³am niepewno¶æ.
- James, ty jeszcze mo¿esz zrezygnowaæ.
- I mam Ciê zostawiæ? Wchodzimy – zarz±dzi³, obj±³ mnie ramieniem i zdecydowanie wkroczyli¶my do sali.
- Dzieñ dobry, pani Walsh – rzek³am niepewnie widz±c, ¿e profesorka siedzi zapatrzona w kryszta³ow± kulê i strzepnê³am ramiê Jamesa. Kobieta nawet nie drgnê³a, spojrza³am siê niepewnie na Pottera, na co on znacz±co postuka³ siê w g³owê.
- I co, widzi tam pani nasz± przysz³o¶æ? - spyta³ ironicznie, lecz wzdrygn±³ siê gdy us³ysza³ odpowied¼, której nie spodziewa³ siê dostaæ.
- Tak, panie Potter, zgad³ pan, widzê w kuli WASZ¡ przysz³o¶æ.
- Znaczy, ¿e moj± i Lilki - wspóln±? - rozemocjonowa³ siê ch³opak.
- Chce Ci przypomnieæ James, ¿e nie wierzysz we wró¿by. - powiedzia³am k±¶liwie.
- No, ale jak wró¿by okazuj± siê takie sensowne, to chyba zacznê. - u¶miechn±³ siê przekornie.
- Umrzecie, bardzo m³odo! - us³yszeli¶my rozdra¿niony g³os profesorki, która widocznie chcia³a na nas zrobiæ wra¿enie, a nie wys³uchiwaæ naszych rozmów.
- Tak, masz racje, nie wierzê we wró¿by. - nie wytrzyma³am i parsknê³am ¶miechem.
- Ale mo¿ecie tego unikn±æ, poznaj±c swoj± przysz³o¶æ. - powiedzia³a profesor Walsh.
Tak, ta kobieta, bardzo chcia³a, ¿eby kto¶ potraktowa³ jej przedmiot powa¿nie. St³umi³am ¶miech i usiedli¶my razem z ni± przy jednym stoliku.
- Chwyæmy siê za rêce. - powiedzia³a zamykaj±c w skupieniu oczu.
- Ju¿ mi siê tu podoba.- u¶miechn±³ siê James ujmuj±c moj± d³oñ, w swoj±. Naprawdê bardzo chcia³am zachowaæ wtedy powagê, ale mi siê nie uda³o.
- Zawsze przed wg³êbianiem siê w swoja przysz³o¶æ, musimy siê skupiæ i zebraæ energiê. Czujecie co¶?
- Tak, czujê jak Lilce poci siê rêkê. - wybuch³am ¶miechem.
- Czy wy, zakochani nie potraficie, ani na chwile, zachowaæ powagi?- spyta³a rozdra¿niona.
- Zakochani? - spyta³am oburzona.
- Zakochani? - spyta³ James rozanielony – A¿ tak widaæ?
Zby³am to dumnym milczeniem, zreszt± tak samo jak pani Walsh. Resztê zajêæ spêdzili¶my na patrzeniu siê w kryszta³ow± kulê. Profesorka w czasie tej czynno¶ci zachowywa³a siê jakby ogl±da³a telewizje, co chwilê g³o¶no wzdychaj±c, ale wydaj±c z siebie krzyk rozpaczy. James patrzy³ siê na mnie, a gdy Profesorka na koniec zajêæ zapyta³a co widzieli¶my, odpowiedzia³:
- ¦liczn±, rud± dziewczynê o zielonych oczach.
Musia³am mu pos³aæ kolejne zniecierpliwione spojrzenie.
- A Ty Lily?
- Yyy... Ja widzia³am przystojnego ch³opaka o ciemnych w³osach... i szarych oczach.- odpowiedzia³am i pokaza³am Jamesowi jêzyk. Specjalnie wybra³am cechy przeciwne do niego. Niestety po chwili dopiero zrozumia³am swój b³±d.
- Nie chodzi³o o Syriusza! - krzyknê³am w panice.
- No mam nadziejê. - odpowiedzia³ podejrzliwie, wstaj±c.
- Do nastêpnych zajêæ.- krzyknê³a za nami profesorka. Mia³a minê cz³owieka, który dobrze wype³ni³ swoje zadanie.
- Ale naprawdê nie chodzi³o o Syriusza.- powiedzia³am ju¿ za drzwiami.
- Wierzê. W koñcu to ja Ci siê podobam. - u¶miechn±³ siê wyzywaj±co..
- Ciekawe, czemu tym razem doszed³e¶ do takiego wniosku. - rzek³am znudzona.
- Poniewa¿ mi siê t³umaczysz.- by³ wyra¼nie zadowolony z siebie.
Pokrêci³am g³ow± ze zniecierpliwienia i ruszy³am do przodu.
- A mo¿e, nie? - Jamesa ruszy³ za mn±.

Poza tym w szkole jak to w szkole, prace domowe, lekcje, uczenie siê, chocia¿ ju¿ nied³ugo ma³a zmiana – bêdzie pierwsza w tym roku impreza w klubie ¶limaka. Chyba siê wybiorê, bo co lepszego mogê zrobiæ?
Przegl±dam teraz album ze zdjêciami rodzinnymi. Ju¿ min±³ ponad rok od ¶mierci taty, a dopiero teraz mogê o nim napisaæ, wcze¶niej ba³am siê, ¿e smutek powróci ze zdwojon± si³±. Teraz wspomnienia przesta³y powodowaæ ³zy w moich oczach, a jedynie têskny u¶miech. Bardzo têsknie za tat±, jego listami z domu, naszymi rozmowami o mojej przysz³o¶ci. Lubi³am mu t³umaczyæ dzia³ania zaklêæ i za ka¿dym razem gdy s³ysza³am „To te¿ da siê wyczarowaæ?!” czu³am wielk± rado¶æ, ¿e jestem czarownic± i ¿e tata jest ze mnie dumny.
Ach, czy jest co¶ piêkniejszego od bezinteresownej i niezmiennej mi³o¶ci? Niestety o rodzicach my¶li siê w takich kategoriach, dopiero gdy ich zabraknie...

Komentarze:

I as well as my friends ended up going through the excellent secrets and techniques found on your web site then immediately came up with a horrible feeling I never thanked the site owner for those techniques. My men happened to be absolutely happy to read all of them and already have pretty much been tapping into those things. Appreciate your genuinely really considerate and then for having some quality subject areas millions of individuals are really desirous to be informed on. My very own honest regret for not expressing gratitude to you earlier.
adidas yeezy

A lot of thanks for your own labor on this blog. Gloria really likes getting into internet research and it's easy to understand why. A lot of people know all regarding the powerful mode you deliver effective tricks on the blog and invigorate participation from other ones on this issue and our favorite child is without a doubt studying a lot of things. Take pleasure in the remaining portion of the new year. You are always doing a powerful job.
off white outlet

I wish to show my appreciation to the writer for rescuing me from this issue. As a result of scouting through the online world and coming across methods which were not productive, I figured my life was done. Being alive without the answers to the problems you've fixed as a result of your main write-up is a crucial case, and those that could have adversely affected my career if I had not discovered your web site. Your main capability and kindness in touching almost everything was helpful. I am not sure what I would've done if I had not encountered such a thing like this. I can at this time relish my future. Thanks so much for your high quality and amazing guide. I will not hesitate to propose the sites to any person who would like guide about this situation.
off white clothing

I not to mention my friends came viewing the best hints located on the blog and quickly I had a horrible suspicion I never thanked the website owner for those tips. Those people are actually for this reason joyful to read through all of them and now have truly been using those things. Thank you for actually being quite thoughtful as well as for obtaining varieties of fine useful guides most people are really needing to know about. Our own sincere apologies for not expressing appreciation to you earlier.
palm angels

Thank you a lot for giving everyone an exceptionally special opportunity to read in detail from this site. It is always very nice and as well , full of fun for me and my office co-workers to search your site no less than three times in a week to find out the newest guidance you have got. Not to mention, we are at all times fulfilled with your sensational points you give. Selected 1 areas in this article are surely the finest we have all had.
supreme new york

I would like to show some appreciation to this writer for bailing me out of this type of incident. Right after looking through the online world and meeting basics which are not helpful, I assumed my life was well over. Living devoid of the strategies to the problems you have sorted out by way of your good report is a crucial case, as well as ones that could have in a negative way damaged my career if I hadn't discovered your web site. Your good talents and kindness in touching almost everything was very helpful. I don't know what I would've done if I had not encountered such a thing like this. I am able to at this time look forward to my future. Thanks very much for the reliable and sensible help. I won't be reluctant to propose your site to anybody who needs counselling on this subject.
kawhi leonard shoes

I truly wanted to jot down a small message in order to say thanks to you for the splendid tips you are posting at this website. My considerable internet research has at the end been paid with pleasant concept to talk about with my guests. I 'd point out that we site visitors are definitely blessed to be in a very good community with so many marvellous individuals with interesting guidelines. I feel truly fortunate to have seen your entire webpages and look forward to many more entertaining moments reading here. Thanks a lot once more for all the details.
yeezy 500

I am just writing to make you understand what a nice experience our child found browsing the blog. She realized a lot of pieces, which include what it's like to possess a marvelous teaching mindset to get many others smoothly comprehend a variety of tricky topics. You undoubtedly exceeded our own expectations. Thanks for offering these priceless, safe, informative not to mention cool tips about the topic to Ethel.
hermes

I wanted to jot down a quick note to be able to express gratitude to you for these stunning guidelines you are sharing at this site. My incredibly long internet research has now been rewarded with pleasant facts to share with my companions. I 'd admit that most of us website visitors are really endowed to exist in a good network with many outstanding people with very helpful tips. I feel very grateful to have discovered your web site and look forward to many more awesome times reading here. Thanks a lot again for everything.
goyard

Thanks a lot for giving everyone a very spectacular opportunity to check tips from this blog. It's usually so excellent and also stuffed with amusement for me personally and my office acquaintances to visit your web site on the least 3 times per week to see the fresh guides you have got. And lastly, I am also usually amazed for the mind-blowing opinions you serve. Certain 1 ideas on this page are absolutely the best I have had.
kyrie 6 shoes

I and also my friends ended up analyzing the great points from your site and so then I had a terrible suspicion I never thanked the web site owner for them. My ladies came totally happy to see them and have without a doubt been taking pleasure in those things. Appreciate your getting simply kind and also for making a choice on this kind of impressive ideas millions of individuals are really desperate to be informed on. My very own honest regret for not saying thanks to you sooner.
golden goose

Thanks for all of the labor on this web site. My daughter takes pleasure in setting aside time for investigation and it's simple to grasp why. All of us learn all regarding the powerful method you produce useful guides through this website and recommend response from others about this subject then our favorite simple princess is now being taught a lot. Take pleasure in the remaining portion of the new year. You are conducting a dazzling job.
kobe sneakers

I wanted to write you one very little observation just to give thanks as before on the marvelous views you've discussed in this article. It was really extremely open-handed of people like you to supply freely all a number of us could possibly have advertised as an ebook to help with making some dough for their own end, and in particular considering that you might well have done it in case you desired. The thoughts as well served to be the great way to be aware that other individuals have a similar zeal similar to my own to know more with regard to this issue. I'm sure there are a lot more enjoyable times ahead for folks who read carefully your site.
off white

Thank you a lot for giving everyone an extraordinarily terrific opportunity to read in detail from this web site. It can be so fantastic plus jam-packed with amusement for me and my office co-workers to search your site minimum 3 times every week to find out the latest guides you will have. And of course, I am just at all times amazed with your wonderful solutions served by you. Some two points in this posting are unequivocally the most efficient I've had.
supreme clothing

I have to point out my gratitude for your kind-heartedness in support of individuals who require help with this particular situation. Your personal dedication to getting the message along appears to be certainly functional and has usually allowed most people just like me to achieve their goals. Your own important guidelines implies a lot to me and a whole lot more to my office colleagues. Warm regards; from each one of us.
palm angels

I and my pals were actually reviewing the great information located on your web page and all of the sudden I had an awful suspicion I never thanked the web blog owner for them. My ladies were definitely certainly very interested to see them and have now quite simply been making the most of them. Thanks for actually being simply thoughtful and also for deciding on varieties of outstanding information millions of individuals are really desperate to know about. Our own honest apologies for not saying thanks to you earlier.
off white hoodie outlet

I'm just commenting to let you be aware of of the cool experience my cousin's daughter undergone studying the blog. She discovered lots of details, not to mention what it is like to possess a wonderful teaching mindset to get many people clearly understand selected extremely tough matters. You undoubtedly did more than readers' expected results. Thanks for showing those important, dependable, revealing and also fun tips on that topic to Gloria.
hermes outlet online

I enjoy you because of each of your effort on this web site. My mother enjoys going through investigation and it is easy to see why. Many of us hear all of the powerful means you give advantageous ideas via your blog and even strongly encourage response from people about this topic while our own child is undoubtedly studying a great deal. Take pleasure in the remaining portion of the year. Your conducting a powerful job.
supreme clothing

Thanks so much for giving everyone remarkably brilliant chance to read in detail from here. It really is so amazing and also stuffed with a lot of fun for me and my office co-workers to visit your site at minimum 3 times in 7 days to read through the new guidance you have. Not to mention, I am just at all times amazed concerning the mind-blowing secrets served by you. Some 2 areas in this posting are easily the most beneficial we've ever had.
supreme outlet

Thanks a lot for giving everyone an exceptionally memorable chance to check tips from this web site. It is usually so pleasant plus packed with amusement for me and my office friends to visit your site not less than 3 times in 7 days to study the new items you have got. And definitely, I am just actually impressed concerning the exceptional creative ideas you serve. Selected 1 ideas on this page are certainly the most suitable we've had.
off white outlet

« 1 100 101 102 103 104 105 106 »

| Script by Alex